It feels...
like a dream.


suddenly, the 3 months in shanghai felt like 3 hours.
No, those 90 days felt like a story book i've just finish reading.

it doesnt feel like i was in shanghai 24 hrs ago.
it doesnt feel like i am away for 3 months.

everything is upside down.
i am always amazed by the fact that we have the power to remember things, to store memories in our hearts in our minds. But i dont really like memories. I always thought memories cant be trusted. It is what we choose to rmb not exactly what had happened. and i am used to only remembering the good stuff, the bad ones i throw them into the trash. Feelings fades over time. Memories change according to what we want.

I dont have a solution to that. So i am just going keep flashing all that i still rmb in my mind so i can rmb all the good and bad times in shanghai.

When i was on my way to shanghai in the singapore airport 3 months ago, i was only worried abt my luggage. I was paranoid that maybe i am so suay someone wants to steal it before i could collect it. Other than that, i was cool with everything and could smell freedom waiting for me with it's arms wide open.

Just hours before i arrived, i see responsibilities, commitments, and a busy& noisy lifestyle waving their hands at me. I think i've changed, or rather i've grown up a little more. At least i am no longer too lazy to voice my pinions.

and yes, if u haven notice, i am actually back in singapore already.